Fucking hell now i really have and realize that the understanding between them is really widen and things that are going to be right goes wrong and when i wanted a clearer expaination the other party just reply with a word that is nvm , NB it is against the law to ask when in doubt ?
if u think that talking to mi is a fucking hassle that forget it ,

At times i really think of giving up all the things that i currently are holding and just disappear from this place for good and get some time with nature and find my self back. Cause living at this place and with this type of people is really DAMN FUCKING HARD and is NBCB hard to communicate with them when ever i want to communicate with then i will have my life shorten.

At times i m really thinking that is it a right choice that i choose to take up that course and be someone now,cause whenever i wanted to offer a service or wanted to try smth new it was rejected but when other want to try it is always being approve why ??? .
or maybe what my 8 char does not match with them ? it is very obvious that when there meetings or event my point that i have made is not being used and meet.
at times i really feel that at at area is more of my home and i will rather spend more time with area then with unit why cause i said it all .
so should i or should i not ????
i dun really understand why those oldies when it is time to let go one will not let go and will continue to hold on to that thing and refuse to let young or new blood to take over and try on new things ?

It is not really to call those oldies to F off but at least go to the back and act as a adviser and let those young ones learn and try new stuff so that the young ones will learn from the experiences and not just hear from the oldies and always must stick with the old suck up rules. with is damn stupid i think at times.

Right now at this moment on time i m really at the breaking point already so if u are the Fucking unlucky that have come and F wit mi then dun blame mi that i screw u up down left right center
becuase u are just that fucking unlucky one ... ... ...

i do now know what the fuck is wrong or wat the F is going on in mi and now a day i have been trying to fight off all attackers that are attacking my work like shooting email after email just to defend my points.
can some one out there tell mi what the F is happening to me now ???
exp when it come to a certain topic i will be extremely hostile and cranky with it comes to talking about my points or things that belongs to my area/me.
help is needed urgently ... ...
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