if you wonder why i took so long to ask u you 1 year in fact

you have been asking me why when we know each other for so long yet only , we meet up for the 1st time after 1 year....

i have not been telling you the actual reason because certain things are still better to remain unsaid to you.

but i really jus cannot hold it any more in side me, i need a channel to vent it out to sae it out, nvm i shall just say it out here as i know there will be no one be reading this , cause at this time and age who the F will still be reading blog lol hahas

i have been thinking for so long will you be the one ? do i wan to give it all out to you and for you  ?
actually i have been so scared to be giving it all out and in the end to be left back alone, and being having a one sided story is very tiring  i have been figuring out and thinking that yes why not give you a chance and try cause you might be or will be the one.


but who knows i m wrong again ... my heart have proven to be wrong and ,my brain is more rationale this round , after giving it all in , in the end you still chosen him over mi, and yes i know i sux.

it seems tat he is much more better as compared to me ? way much richer then mi , he can afford to give u so much more then wat i could afford to give u.
he seems to be able to make u happier , times u spend with him seems to be much more happier as compared to times spend with me. on your IG u seens to be posted all and every thing about him , u seems to be treating him more then jus a BF.

oh well, i think it will do you more good if u should stop disturbing u further , let you go
although letting a person go is always the hardest thing to do , but well i guess for nw letting go is far much better then holding on as it will be much more torturous to me.

i would really hope time to rewind and would be have meet you. at least the pain would nt have been so bad compared to nw...


well all i can do nw is just to wish u all the best between u and him .
i will take my leave away frm you silently and quietly without u realising.

good bye
regards.


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